Toilet Ruminations #27

I am going to sit here on this toilet and be still. Just be still. Breathe in and breathe out. Hold my attention on my breathing. My mind wants to ruminate. My mind wants to point out everything that is wrong. Everything that needs to be done. Don’t do it man. Just sit here and be still. To be still is a skill. To be still is a skill. To be still is a skill. Isn’t that a Sonic Youth lyric? Just be still on this toilet. Notice that you are breathing in. Notice that you are breathing out. Can you hear those sounds? Cars going by. A train. Kids playing. A skateboard. A tractor? Breathing in and breathing out. Be still. Don’t move. Just sit here. Who knows for how long. Who cares for how long. Just be still in your mind. Be still in your body. Stop the war. You can do this. It feels better being quiet like this. Just let yourself be quiet like this. Let your head open up. Let all your dirty and miserable thoughts move through the opening. Don’t pay any attention to thoughts. Just let your thoughts move through the hole in your head. The toilet seat is hurting my ass. So what. Just notice the discomfort. Don’t react to it. Just be still. Just be still. All those thoughts about sex, don’t react to them. Just notice the desire. Notice the lust. Notice how badly you want to get your hands on a pair of female breasts. Notice how badly you want to see female nudity. Just notice how much you want naked depravity. Just let the thoughts move through the hole in your head. Just be here on this toilet. Nothing to do. Nowhere to go. This feels better. Breathe in. Breathe out. Just be here man. Don’t go.

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